keep having horrible nightmares and waking up at between 5-6AM although im actually sleepin at a normal time for once :(:(:(
tbh today is a good day kinda maybe, only because i got a cat teapot… yes… a cat… teapot… TWO OF MY FAVOURITE THINGS ALL IN ONE IDGHUOAIEHFJSLFG
"But my anxious heart is eating up my body, eating up my nerves, eating up my brain. I feel this poison slowly filling my veins - every particle becoming slowly tainted. I am never, never calm, never for an instant. I remember years ago saying I wished I were one of those happy people who can suffer so far and then collapse or become exhausted. But I am just the opposite. The more I suffer, the more of fiery energy I feel to bear it."
Katherine Mansfield, from a diary entry dated June 1915. (via c-ovet)
"Ah, world, what lessons you prepare for us, even in the leafless winter, even in the ashy city. I am thinking now of grief, and of getting past it; I feel my boots trying to leave the ground, I feel my heart pumping hard. I want to think again of dangerous and noble things. I want to be light and frolicsome. I want to be improbable beautiful and afraid of nothing, as though I had wings."
Mary Oliver (via seabois)